i know it seems like i talk so much on this, but we never talk to each other during the weeks xD so that why i try to go on this a lot. hmph. but the only reason why it looks like i write so much is bc barely NE1 writes on this. umm ^_^ i realized something very scary today but it doesn't seem that sudden. sort of like how i was grasping this fact as days went by. i found out that im closing up even more these days. =D but it doesn't seem safe or good or anything. ;P strawberry milk!! ah, delicious. i know i should be doing daily QT's or at least trying to, but truthfully, i do miss out some days. i guess im in a questioning state right now, but not really, because i want to question God but dont want to bother him with such stuff. you know, b/c he's done so much 4 me & how ingrateful to say why? or when? or what do you want? but im also realizing that even though im pretty far away from people and God right now i've never been so close with Him before. whiicchh is kinda weird. But his presence feels so much nearer.

anyway, hope your weeks or months or days are NOT like mine x] and be blessed. every time i count my blessings someone else points out others that never occurred to me b4. BIG blessings. don't be discouraged, b/c life was meant to be defeated, not us. we're going to live with the Heavenly Abba :) :) oh the joy. like PD said. isaiah 41:10 so do not fear for i am with you, do not be dismayed for i am your God. i will strengthen you and help you, i will uphold you with my righteous right hand. goodbye, oh people! ;]