haha, finally decided to post!
i still check this blog every once in a while...
you know, i still think about local every day.
nostalgia nostalgia nostalgia nostalgia~
aw i want to cry right now, i miss those days,
those two and a half weeks, i actually felt like
i belonged somewhere, its crazy haha :).
wow that sentence just sounded so emo...
but really, truly, local. can never forget about it..
all those crazy experiences...
john , i was mad scared of that guy during missions!
i miss you, john!
lillian, i was mad scared of her too, she woke
me up shivering cause i was so scared of her.
i still see her every week, makes my day very
often, her snoopy face.
dan dan dan funny bald guy who has a crazy byunt
smile and who is now serving in i dont even know,
russia?!
jeanam, harry potter muhahahha, im sorry, we
called you that mercilessly, you probably wanted
to strangle me, i give you permission! i miss you beating
me up, literally -_-; college for you next year, good
luck!
jun kwon, my best buddy! haha we talked so nonsensically
at local, i dont even remember what we talked about,
usually making fun of each other -_-; college for you too,
hip hip hooray!
suyoung! my vegetable loving friend, i still have that
food pyramid you drew me =). i miss you, i never get to
see you, hope you are doing well in SCARSDALE HIGH
SCHOOL, go on facebook more often!
kristie kim, my ride buddy. thanks for abandoning me in
georgia, i had to be a train nomad cause of you -_-
"PRINCESS DONT TOUCH ME, MY TURBAN FELL OFF"
thats all im gonna say.
janet kim! i almost forgot you, my non important friend!
haha i remember my hair during local was epic fail and yours
was epic great! you and kristie, you cult! >:O.
sang-A! riley! hahah the Floridian girls loveeeed you, and so
do i :) heather, i miss that cutie. you were the best mentor
ever, ever.
sarah, you funny funny girl. the only sensical thing i remember
you saying in local was, "i need to do some soul searching.."
you truly truly showed me what it was like to love others uncon
ditionally. I LOVE U.
am i missing anyone, i think not?
i really really miss you guys :(
we all barely talk anymore...
(guess what the font name is.)

memories

i wonder if anyone would still check this.
hi all. we don't really see some of you anymore.
i guess we never really saw su-young much to begin with, too x]
and now that dan is in college...
:] jae-nam and jun are going off soon too.
i guess this is kinda like my last words about local '08.

hi guys. it was awesome working with you.
and learning, too. today i just had a sudden want to see a homeless guy
so i could buy him some MickeyD's and talk...
missions like sticks with your heart or something.
i'm also really sorry to sang-a and lillian for making you worry or burdened or w/e
=P i hope you're doing alright john.
dan :) i kinda miss the annoyingly deep dude with the crazy hair
and the whole team, it was so funny xD
bye guys. this is my end to local '08.

but i think it's my start to something new. whether or not i may be able to go to missions again during yg, i think i'm seeing a greater mission. so with that, i'll end it here. bye local 08 :]
*cranberries ;D i gotta keep my randomness

haagen-dazs ice cream in philly

SO. hello again my dear diary. :D i love rainbows. i was making a video but ah its not that great :] so all will be my beautiful and random rant. my rant shall be about pillows. pillows are nice & fluffy and magical. hmmm new rant. steven chun and the cupcake. oh the cupcake. xD okay i might turn into gina any second now so yeah.

Day 2

hmmm. so we woke up at like 6? and we had delicious breakfast yummm. then it was JAMA day 1: Repentance (thats todays theme)
we started off with this biblical exposition thing. the speaker talked about Habbakauk.or however you spell that.....
Then we had a general session. Danny Oertli led worship.. And he loves the song GOD OF THIS CITY.. actually he did it 3 times! Then John Kim (mr.JAMA) spoke. It was really good. He talked about why you shouldnt put materialistic things before God. Then Jae Park spoke, and HE IS SO FUNNY!!! It was about how much God loves you and you shouldnt be insecure cuz God loves you and God is good. =) then we sang God of this City. AGAIN! then we met people from youth group that came only for today. It was cool. There was a track session today. We were in the youth track session. We couldnt hear anything so it wasnt that great, We just left and shared testimonies with each other (that was Bryant's idea). Then we had dinner with everyone, including JAMA KIDS people. Then it was the evening general session. Danny Oertli was there again.. guess what? God of This City. =O
Then Stephen Chong talked. He is amazing. He was so funny. It was that you shouldnt love the gifts you receive more than the one that gives the gift. It was one good sermon. Then!!! BROOKLYN TABERNACLE CHURCH CAME!! WHOOT!
they ARE SOO GOOD! oh my gosh. it was an amazing worship time. Jim Cymbala came too and his wife came with some singers from brooklyn tabernacle. THEY WERE ALL AMAZING!! JIRANI also performed today. I love them. They are so good too. so pretty!!
all the speakers and worship leaders and people were amazing. JAMA is amazing. then we had time after to pray. that was good too.
Today was good. I cant believe its only day 2. wow. this is only the beginning. COOL COOL!!!
it was nice seeing church people. hahaa

sarah's xanga

i am back :) lol
i haven't checked this for like.... O_o; a very long time lol
dan was saying he's still young and i feel like i'm getting too old.
odd. the homeless ministry day was its own miracle to me.
everything i forgot, or tried to forget, God reminded me of it that day. sunday too...
i'm learning in a very special way right now. i guess that's why these days i'm out of it so much.
randomly i'm so excited and passionate. literally 3 hours or so later i'm confused and all headach-y.
i want to so much get down on my knees before this guy and tell him i'm so sorry.
for being such an idiot, for being distracted with things im purposely bringing up.
right now the lesson i'm learning is: don't ever forget the past. use the past.
ahh so weird. i'm in deep thinking one sec and high off of air another second.
ROFL okay :):) be blessed, all.

One week left. wow time goes by fast. 

Anyway, I haven't written on this for a while. I haven't had much to say but after the homeless outreach there are alot of things on my mind. so here goes...

 I think the homeless outreach was a good experience. I mean I will admit, I think that it could've been better, but hey it was only our first time, and I'm glad that it was done in a testing field rather than our actual missions. It's just that there wasn't THAT many homeless people. I thought there'd be more lol. If only there was more...lol no wait I take that back haha. 

Anyway I just wanted to also tell you guys about something weird that happened just before I took the train home. Well, I was walking past this group of like 10 black people preaching right? They had these like weird robes on and were holding signs and reading the bible, so I was like wow nice to see fellow christians telling people about God, until I actually started to listen to what I was saying. These guys were blaspheming. Their main theme was that God would destroy America. That he would punish and destroy every race except for blacks because they are the chosen people. They claimed that they were a part of the 12 tribes of Israel or something like that? The guy preaching pointed at me and called me a chink in front of the WHOLE crowd. And then he went on to say that I'm from a wicked race of heathen and incest and whatnot. I'm like wtfreak. I got so mad, they were twisting God's words to match it to their liking. The WORST thing was most of the passerby that actually stopped for more than ten minutes to listen, who were primarily black, were totally agreeing with them. They were like seriously mezmerized and their eyes were full of hatred it was scary. Nobody defended me too. Instead, most of them laughed at me. Not just as like a joke either. Not because they thought it was actually funny but because they were full of hatred. And when I looked at them their eyes were like demonic. Like they wanted to stab me right there or something. Some of them were high too I could tell, but thats no excuse for being like that. Man, Satan was filling them up with evil. I can honestly say that I have never seen with my own eyes greater wickedness. I mean, they were completely filled with lies too. You would think that you'd have to be crazy to believe in the outrageous message they were preaching, but the preachers AND the listeners actually believed it with all their hearts. That scared me the most. Nothing was holding them back. As far as I could tell, they had no conscience. 

Yeah, well now that I've vented I feel much better, but God made me realize alot. This kind of bursted my bubble you know? I realized I'm still so young. I haven't seen most of the world yet, and that there are many many things in this world that I've been protected from and not aware of. It really renewed my desperation for God and made me realize how desperate this world needs God. 

devotional

i took this from the pre-camp devotionals that the Group Workcamps provided us. i changed up some parts because they were a little too specific to their program, but i believe the message is clear and applicable to many aspects of our trip.

do share your thoughts, reflections, prayer requests!

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Jesus loved out loud with time

The word and idea of "time" is part of our everyday language. Take two minutes and write down as many as you can that have to do with "time."

Hopefully you came up with a great list. No matter how we talk about time, there's one universal way that people look at time. It's mine! No one minds wasting time. But all of us bristle when someone wastes our time. That's because we only have so much of it. Every day, you make a choice - or a series of many choices - about how you will use your time. You can use it for yourself in any number of ways - have some downtime, hangout with friends, go to school or work, travel, and the list goes on and on. Or, you can give some of your time away, by loving and serving others, helping someone in need, and spending time in a relationship with God.

Jesus had choices as well. His home - the place where Jesus spent His eternal time - was in Heaven. Can you even image that? What was that like, and how amazing is it that Jesus gave that up - for us. Jesus Christ loved us with the gift of His time. About 33 years of time, by our clocks. During that time, Jesus didn't sit on the sidelines watching people go by. He hung out with them, helped them, healed them, taught them, fed them, and prayed for them. Jesus loved people and showed it by giving time away - for us.

You will be giving away your time this summer. In fact, you are giving away your time right now through these devotions as you prepare for your trip! Realizing that you are giving away your time can help you make the most of your upcoming mission experience. Since it's a gift to others - to the people you'll be serving and through that, to God - make it the best, most Christ-like gift of your time you've ever given away.

Read John 1:1-4; 14

What would life have been like for Jesus before He came to earth?
Would you ever give up that kind of life like Jesus did? If so, under what circumstances?
Based on what you know about the life of Jesus, how do you think He felt about the time He spent on earth?

Read Philippians 2:5-7

What is God saying about Himself in this passage?
What is God saying to you?